Kade Kade Bo Bade

Kade loves watching fishing shows with his daddy! You have to check out his old man hair. It's bald around the sides and right on top, but he's got hair over his ears, the bottom of his head, and his spike on top. I can't get enough of it. His belly is sure getting bigger, this boy loves his milk! A fast feed for him is 45 min. he really likes to take his time

I read back on some my older post and it makes me nervous just reading it! Wow, I really sound crazy...I am luckily calming down quite a bit. Things are a little better with the feedings so we celebrate the improvements. Kade still just loves to be held every second of the day. He sat in his swing alone for 5 min. today and I couldn't believe it! I have been given great advice from you guys so thank you so much. One thing that Megan Chase told me that has helped is to only try to do one thing a day. Maybe you make dinner and that's it...Or one day do your hair or makeup but don't worry about doing both. That has been great advice because I thought I needed to be a super mom and do it all and that was making me crazy. So now my house is messy, I don't smell to good, but I am a lot nicer to my husband :) I still don't really sleep at all, but you kinda get used to getting by off of little sleep.

I wish I could say I made this, but we all know the box of Betty Crocker is pushing it for me! Some friends from school came over to visit and bring presents. It was so nice to see them!

I LOVE stuffed animals, and so my goal is to get Kade to love them too (I really think he already does!) My mom always loves anything fluffy. I called to tell her I bought Kade this and she actually bought the exact same thing for him the same day up in Utah. Great minds think alike :) Kade is going to get made at me when he realises that I buy him the stuffed animals and then I am the one that sleeps with them! Last night I fell asleep with Gordy (that's the Gorilla's name) in my arms and I woke up freaking out screaming because I was on top of Gordy but I thought it was Kade. Nate woke up to me throwing blankets around saying, "were is he!..." Nate had to point out to me that Kade was sleeping in his bouncer.

PS...Update on the Mountain Lion I saw fishing. Gma Sager babysat one night so Nate and I could go to Lake by ourselves. When we got there a girl came running to our car and said.. "Did you just see that??!!" she showed us her camera and she had just barley taken pictures of a bobcat. I had proof!!!!!!!!! It was the same thing I saw and in the same spot! ?

Ode to the Single Mothers

I think it’s so funny how I totally thought I was going to know what I was doing when this little man got here. I mean why not…I read every book, bought every baby item, taught school (so maybe thought I had a niche with kids)…and then you throw it all out the window the day the stark drops your little bundle off! J I think that Heavenly Father has a special line in Heaven and gives medals to all the mamas out there, and I think Kade is going to make sure I work for mine. The first week of his life we totally thought that he was the easiest baby ever. Well, I forgot to knock on my 2X4. We were for sure that he had Nate’s personality traits; such as calm, laid back, easy going. And then I think he tricked us…he waited for Grandma Davis to go home and Nate to go back to work. He is a crack up..this child is very strong willed and stubborn. He knows what he wants and won’t stop till he gets it. Heaven forbid he doesn't get his way…hmmm, I wonder where he gets these traits from??? :) He has colic and wants to be moving to sleep. He sleeps so good on our nightly walks in his front back. Everyone says that you have to sleep when they are sleeping...so if I could just master sleeping while walking around I would be set. My heart just tears to pieces when he is crying so hard and when he throws up. I feel so bad for him and want to do ANYTHING to make it go away. I sometimes feel like I am doing something wrong and that's why he's screaming. I always swore that I wouldn't do this and that as a parent... and now I will do whatever it takes. It turns me into a frazzled mother because I don't' sleep at all, but this guy has me wrapped around every little finger.

Now I don't want anyone to think that I am complaining about being a mother. I love Kade more than I ever even knew was possible. He makes me so incredibly happy. He is SUCH a blessing to our lives. I just have to journal how it's going so I can one day and look back and laugh what a crazy mother I was! First, I am sure many of you can relate with this with your husbands working, and/or in school. But Nate works nights at the hospital. So before he starts a shift he has to get a nap in so he can last the 13 hour night. When he gets home he has to sleep...he'll wake up just in enough time to shower, eat, and get ready to go back to work. So I maybe see him 2 hours a day. Just enough time for me to take out my frustrations on him. Lucky man! :) I can survive with my two hours of sleep a night just fine, but around 5 o'clock I start wearing down, and that's right when he wakes up to get ready to leave again. I tried to be a good wife last night and make him dinner before he left. While I was feeding Kade, the water boiled over from the corn on the cob and about lit the house on fire...I dropped a pork chop on the ground...old me probably would've laughed so hard...new, anxiety me, says mean things to my husband like it was all his fault. I really don't know how single mothers do it. I give them such mad props. I give props to every parent out there. I know that there are a lot of people that have much harder issues with their kids, and it really could be a lot worse. Tonight has been SO nice because Nate has the evening off. I feel like a normal couple that can spend the evening together and he can help change a diaper. Kade does so much better when his dad is home. I guess it's true that babies read your stress. I just don't want to do anything wrong, or screw up. This is funny coming from a person that can show up to teach school one minute before the bell rings and not have any lessons planned, and can sneak out of meetings, and do homework on the way to class. But other things in my life I am such a perfection-ist with...and I guess this is one of them.

I have to give some shout outs to all those that have helped me keep some sanity...Thanks to the Sager family, Gma Sager and Heidi for coming over some days to watch him so I can rest! Thanks to my family, Gma and Gpa Davis for sending him cute clothes and letting me call all the time to tell funny stories. Thanks to Brandi for our nightly phone calls...she is very supportive even though I know she had it 1,000 times harder than I do. Thanks to all my girlfriends for answering my texts and questions I have. Shout out to my hubster who still loves me even though I am a crazy, parinod mother. Thanks to those that have brought meals so we didn't have to eat pbj's again! I promise when things start to settle down I will be a better friend and return some of this service I have received.
This mister just doesn't want to sleep. I think he just likes to party and is afraid if he sleeps he'll miss out on something fun. I don't have it in me to let him cry it out. We play binki wars all night, he'll finally doze off but then his binki falls out and it wakes him back up again. He'll scream until I get up and put it back in his mouth. I am a sucker and get up every time to put it back in. I have started pumping and feeding him from bottles so that I can know how much he's taking in. This has helped a lot with his reflex because he loves to pig out and he ate too much while he nursed and then he'd projectile barf it all. The nights Nate works is tough because he will scream and while I try to hurry and pump after a feeding. Then I am up trying to wash the pump and get bottles ready while he sleeps...by the time I am done with that it's about time to eat again. It's been worth it though because he does much better with the bottle. I had to buy a bunch of them to see what he liked best.. I found the Dr. Brown ones help him the most.

Such a curious man!

This was just before his blow out. I was feeding him and I swear more poop ended up on my lap than in his diaper...all I could do was laugh my head off. It was some nasty business!

I love this Monkey boy! One of my favorite parts of the day are story time! He sits in his bumbo and loves me to read to him. He really looks at the pictures. He told me that so far his favorite book is, "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" he can't wait to see the movie. I think he wishes he lived in a land that rained food all day :)

I also look forward to our nightly walks. He can't get enough of his snuggli backpack and his moby wrap so he can be bundled. I make up funny songs on our walks that have to dumbest lyrics ever. I just sing whatever comes to mind that rhymes...I love it so much!

Don't you just want to smooch those lips??!! Well, I am hoping next post I have taken a chill pill and am able to relax more. You know when you are a little kid and you think your parents knew everything...you all have to promise to not tell Kade that I don't know what I am doing...but just trying my best!

Lake Trip...

First Trip to the Lake!!! Okay...so this will be a story to remember for us. Nate and I started looking online for speciality life jackets for babies. We were disappointed to find out that they don't make them for 2 week old babies (I wonder why??) We decided that Kade and I would just hang out while Nate fished. It would be nice to have a little family adventure and get out of the house...or so I thought :) Our truck is tiny and with the car seat in there I had to straddled the stick shift and squeeze in the middle on the hour ride. It was still 108 in the evening so I thought me and the baby could sit in the car. I brought a book and some thank you cards to work on. Let's just say I read one page, and didn't complete any cards. Here are some of the things that happened that trip.
-I forgot my precious Boppy so I had to cover some life vests with a blanket to help me feed Kade.
-I haven't mastered changing a baby in a small truck yet without getting poop on everything (sorry Nate)
-The sun finally went down so I thought I'd take Kade on a walk
-The bats and bugs came out at night. A bat flew at into my head..Yes I freaked!
-I was trying to cover Kade but it was still so hot.
-So we get back into the truck for air conditioning. The truck wouldn't start
-I go sit in a camping chair on shore while trying to cover the baby from bugs but fan him from the heat, when I suddenly see a wild animal. I swear it was a bobcat or mountain lion. Nate says it was probably a bunny ;)
-I thought it would be safer to sit in the pickup of Nate's truck to put us on higher ground. We had to be out of reach of the ferocious animal that was lurking nearby! I had to balance holding Kade and throwing my chair in the back of the truck.
-I occasionally would yell Nate's name, thinking maybe somehow the wind would catch my voice right and he could hear me across the lake on his boat to come rescue us.
-Low and behold Nate finally came to check in. He was laughing to see us sitting on his truck. He fixed the car and we got to sit safe and sound in the truck while Nate finished fishing. Moral of the story...maybe we should wait till Kade is a little older before we take him to the lake agian. Or next time I will just make sure I am packing some heat to take care of the bats and mountain lions!

Little Aspyn Ivins was born a week after Kade. We can't wait for them to be best buddies. She is so darling. I am a little jealous because she sleeps through the night, and my chunky monkey is bitin at the bit to eat every 2 hours all day and all night.

We were laughing so hard at him in this chair. He looks like a little old man. I can't believe he already likes his Bumbo chair.

Lovin the double chin in this shot!

We are teaching him early which teams he is aloud to cheer for. He is going to half to cheer extra hard for the Broncos this year, because I think they are going to need all the help they can get. Kade told me he is already a die hard Dodger fan so we don't have to worry about that!

Sometime in the middle of the night...I think that he is afraid of the dark because he likes the lights to be on while he sleeps. Also he likes noise, last night we kept the TV on all night in our room. I was so tired that I was able to sleep through it. Sports Center all night baby!

We love this little man!